Coffee Talk Tuesday: A New year of Mess.

First of all I would just like to say Happy New Year everybody, and Happy Valentines Day. I hope everyone’s new year was great and valentines day sweet, . I know there is some people who hate valentine’s day because they’re single. But let me tell you there are some people who wish they were single and are in relationships. Crazy I know but it’s true, I happen to be one of those people who want to be single. 16years and I’m done, it’s not like I don’t love my man cause I do but I just feel like I’m out growing him. He’s getting older, he will be 58yrs old and I just turned 35 in November. I also think it’s the age difference to. Anyway, lately everything he do has been working my nerves his jokes is not so funny anymore and that’s what I was attracted to when we first met. now when I look at him I think : ” what was I thinking when I met you “. He is a sweet guy but boy is he boring. If set in his ways was a person he would be that. I think it’s the old energy for me. I need some young energetic high level of energy to match my energy, cause he can’t keep up with me, and its draining me so much.

If I would have known being with a older man would end up like this I would have just been his friend instead. I talked to him about it but old boy don’t want to let go. And we have been bumping heads a lot lately and it’s just a Mess. We are always arguing and he always says he is going to change, but it’s been years and we are still arguing about the same things. I feel like I’m spending so much time trying to please him and change for him and compromise for him, that I’m not taking care of myself properly. I haven’t done my hair , feet, nails I haven’t went shopping I haven’t went out. Overall I want myself back ,I want to be who I was working on to be a while ago.

I think he doesn’t want to break up because we have a daughter together and he probably think he won’t be able to see his daughter, but I’m not like that, I assured him that he can see his daughter when ever he has time. I don’t know what to do I feel trapped. But In the mean time I will just have to keep working on building my business and taking care of my daughter and try taking care of myself and not to focus on this man eventually, hopefully he will get the picture. A mess right lol (giggle, giggle). Okay y’all That’s the Mess for the new Year. But I feel like things is going to get better. Until next time…

Happy valentines Month.

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